you know, i also think about death a lot. i think that's normal, healthy even. i mean, it can be unhealthy if you do it too much, obviously, but i think more people lean more towards not thinking about it at all. i don't feel afraid of it though. of course there are things i want to do but i also know that if something happened tomorrow, even if i didn't do everything i wanted to do, i am at least happy with who i am as a person. although if i die before i finish this damn kinkmas fic i will be sooo mad and for sure come back to haunt someone as revenge.