The ice is sweating. Moisture gathering at the surface, at the precise line where the ice meets the water it's in the process of becoming. I'm watching it from the bench on the pier, the same bench, the same eastward orientation I keep returning to without quite deciding to. Gulls have settled at that line...
In hindsight, 1982 was the most significant year of my life. During that year, really awful things took place and really wonderful things. The awful turned into the wonderful and eventually, the wonderful turned into the awful. It was how I started looking at life that way. To start the year I rekindled a relationship with someone who had physically abused me every six months. A year earlier, I had left him but he continued to pursue me until I relented and went back. He gave me Hep B. Ten day...