I'm having one of those days where my brain feels restless, where it feels like I "should" be doing something, but as far as I am aware, I have no commitments this weekend whatsoever, so I should just be taking the time to relax, enjoy myself and mentally prepare for the week ahead. (There's nothing...
It's officially April, meaning its Autism Acceptance month. I know I titled the blog my autistic rambles and everything, but I feel like I'm still figuring out my autism. I masked myself for about 20 years of my life and only recently coming to full terms with many things. All my tics and emotions I would spend so long hiding because I knew they weren't acceptable in public. I feel like I'm constantly learning new things about myself and finding who I am. So, I decided to dedicate a post about what my journey with autism has been and how I'm still coming to terms with it all.
Why creating never feels like enough, why rest feels like guilt, and how a childhood labelled defective can make happiness feel unsafe.
Divorce, rejection, and how therapy sometimes treats the words spoken rather than the reason they were said.
Why I stepped back from the This is Beep Beep project, and how a childhood diagnosis from the lost and found box, felt more like misdiagnosed theft.