A story about self-discovery and the wider world.
My personal exploration of schizoid personality disorder and neurodivergence. From King Crimson's prophetic song to global youth withdrawal phenomena, I examine what it means to live with a rich interior life and limited social needs, challenging pathologizing frameworks and questioning whether 'poor outcomes' are about the condition or the metrics.
Why creating never feels like enough, why rest feels like guilt, and how a childhood labelled defective can make happiness feel unsafe.
Divorce, rejection, and how therapy sometimes treats the words spoken rather than the reason they were said.
To be precariously creative - finding creativity through addiction, and whether it was ever really mine.
Why I stepped back from the This is Beep Beep project, and how a childhood diagnosis from the lost and found box, felt more like misdiagnosed theft.